Year: 2004

…but at least I made some progress today. Heaps of work done. Good stuff.

Plus, managed to squeeze in some research that I’ll need for later in the week.

And, better yet, my colleague Phill left his mobile at the office tonight, so I’ve reprogrammed his operator logo from it’s old one (the O2 logo) to a more fitting one (the word ‘codemonkey’). He’ll guess it was me. But who gives a shit, eh?

Hugz and kittenz, everybody;

Jen is, of course, correct. It is a beautiful morning. As I came over the brow of Penglais hill into the valley of Capel Dewi, the frosty fields were spread out before me like a big white blanket. If you happen to be up early this morning, go take a look… before it thaws.

It’s a pity I have so much work to do. I’d have enjoyed spending the day walking. Perhaps I’ll see if I can get everything I need to do, done, and bunk off early… try to find a way up the hill that overshadows the valley: the one I’ve always wanted to climb…

(all dependent on getting this work done, but hey…)

Following my previous entry, here’s some recent feeling around the matter of “losing faith in what you love”.

Very recently, I’ve met a great many people who are just beginning to find interesting and rewarding a thing which I have taken for granted for so long. And I’ve been encouraging this, in my own way – helping them to understand what makes it so great. Would I be a hypocrite if I didn’t believe it myself? And to hide this, how well must I act?

Maybe I’ve written too much. And maybe I’ve written too little. I’m not looking for people’s sympathy any more than their concern. And I’m still me, still happy, and still doing the things I do with the people I love. I’m just a little confused.

But if anybody has the answers, don’t hesitate to tell me.

The most annoying thing in the world? Witnessing an argument and knowing exactly what needs to be said, and what needs to be asked, to resolve it, but those involved being so engrossed in it that none of them will listen to hear what they need to hear.

No; that’s not right; the most annoying thing in the world: when one of the people involved in said argument is so self-righteous about what they’re trying to say that instead of listening to what the other people are actually asking, they keep re-iterating their point, which isn’t actually the answer to the question being asked.

I’m still not sure that’s quite it… perhaps this is it:

Losing faith in something you love.

I’ve just watched the DVD of the controversial Channel 4 TV Series, Jam. It’s… different. It’s perhaps a little too dark and bitter a sense of humour even for me, but I enjoyed it nonetheless. I particularly enjoyed the “Symptomless Coma” sketch. All very, very sick-and-wrong, though. While I personally liked it, I can see why it got complaints.

That, and I’ve been doing my laundry and practising my juggling. My left arm still isn’t as strong nor as controlled as I’d like it to be; and I’ll need it to improve some more before I can really make any progress with four-ball juggling.

And I’ve been reading yet more of MMYRTL (A.K.A. Developing Your Own 32-Bit OS). It’s really quite scary. But great bedtime reading.

Oh; and you can rely on me not to go on about the WinNT/2K source code leak for ages in my blog. It’s being well enough covered, I feel, by… well; everybody. It’s safe to say that the Windows source code is spreading across the internet like a virus. I don’t think I ought to finish that analogy.

I need to get some sleep.

Wow. I’ve found an internet radio station dedicated entirely to remixes of C64 music. Go tune-in!